Hello everyone, I'm back.

Mum went home today and we've all had a lovely time. Hopefully she'll come again soon.

Despite saying I'd stay away, I have been lurking around the blogs the past few nights. I just didn't comment as much because I was on quite late and didn't have time to linger.

But while I've been gone I've noticed that some of my 'friends' have dropped me from their blogs. I've also seen a few posts around the place about the purpose of 'friends' and the purpose of 'blogs'. This has got me fretting a bit , hoping that I haven't inadvertently offended anyone, so I thought I'd set out my position.

My sole purpose when I began this blog, was to chart my own journey in losing weight and becoming fit and fabulous, so that when I start my business persuading beginners to lose weight and start exercising, i would have my own inspirational story to draw on, with all its flaws and ups and downs. Hence the title of the blog and a certain bias towards health and fitness issues.

I intended the blog as just another part of my business website. But I had no idea how to set up a blog on my site (I've now found out I don't pay a high enough fee to my ISP to have a blog on my site), so I came to blog.co.uk to blog and just linked it to my site.

I've also never had a website before and I don't have a clue how to use it. I'm trying all kinds of things on it at the moment just to find out how they work. At some time next year probably this will be launched as a fully functioning business website and I'll be out there with the rest of the vultures touting for business - at the moment I'm just playing. Anyone who goes there right now and makes any comment at all is doing me a great favour, and you're all invited.

When I came to blog.co.uk I didn't really have a clue what I was up to. I was keeping a blog as a diary for me and my future clients and didn't really know what 'friends' were all about. Anyone who commented on my blog - I wnet and read their posts and started to realise that other people had 'friends'. And being a nice sociable person I wanted them too.

Slowly but surely over the past few months I've gained a few friends and found that the purpose of the blog has changed course a bit. I've 'met' a great group of people whose comments I greatly look forward to each evening. I can't even stay off when my mum comes to stay. There's a great group of people who are inspiring me, supporting me, and making me laugh (thanks Sussie, I really need adult humour sometimes). Some of my other friends are on their own inspirational journeys, and honestly doing a lot better than I am. I keep reading, hoping that soon I will receive the vital piece of inspiration that will set me on the path.

I've even rediscovered my French, after one of the French bloggers invited me as a friend recently. I've followed up some of his commmenters and am now attempting to say a few French words to a few French people which is doing me no end of good.

I read every one of my friends' posts - nearly all anyway. I love seeing what everyone is up to. I pick as friends, people whose blogs interest and inspire me - and those who are coming to comment on my own blog - I'm not just trying to get my numbers up.

So my 'fitness and health' blog has become a bit of a litany of my life, and a place to vent in the evenings. Mind you, if anyone does ask any advice in my new specialist subject of health and fitness I have no hesitation in offering my own two-penn'orth. I ask people to visit my website now and again as well - most recently to see my photos. Although there is stuff for sale on my site, which i am trialling (links to where I'm doing my own Christmas shopping!), I hope people are not referring to me when they say that some people are just bloggin cos they want to sell you something.

At some point in the future, I will launch a commercially minded blog on my own website, using some of the stuff I have been teaching myself these last few months. But I think I will still hang round here, even then, because I'm enjoying it a lot more than I thought I would, and I love the idea that I've got a group of friends around the world, some of whom I might like to meet at some point in the future - who can tell.

I don't suppose the people who have dropped me as friends will read this post. I'm not sure, reading it back myself whether it makes any sense at all. But it's done me good to explore my own concerns and motives, and now I will worry no more about my ex-friends and get on with the fun stuff.